Honestly, the last thing I wanted to do today was blog. It's hot, I'm running on two hours of sleep and I've spent the last 13 hours cleaning, packing and moving. (Moving definitely sucks, but moving by yourself is SO much worse.) But I couldn't bear the thought that a whole month would pass without me writing anything, especially when I have tons of things I want to/should blog about: the Port of Oakland boat tour I went on last week, my run-in with a psychotic seagull earlier this week, the insanity (mostly in a good way) that has been my last week in the Bay Area, and most especially, my thoughts on leaving.
Because as soon as I finish writing this blog, I'll pack up my computer, stick it in the car with all the rest of my crap, and head out. Crazy. And sad. And still completely unfathomable. Even though I am sitting in an apartment with literally nothing in it, even though I have met the woman who is moving into my apartment tomorrow, even though I've been saying goodbye to old friends and sadly admitting the impossibility of maintaining relationships with people I just met, I still don't think my head really gets that I'm leaving Oakland--the place I've called home for 5 years--and probably won't be back as anything but a visitor for a long, long time.
I think it will probably hurt like hell when I finally realize that truth.
2 comments:
Yes, and the rest of us are very sad as well! Sorry I didn't get to see you off. Are you in DC yet? Safe travels! I miss you already!
It will be OK. You'll love your new home. This is life. We move, we grow. The magic of the Interweb is that you can keep in touch, even if you don't see people. And you can always come out to visit. I found what made things easier was visiting: the visits become less frequent & less necessary, but scheduling a visit for a few months from now may make the transition easier.
And I will miss you, even though we just met. You're a good egg. xo -dina-
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